Left To Suffer - On Death [EP 2021]

Lyrics to On Death [EP 2021] by Left To Suffer

Tracklist: 01. Event The thoughts that circle my head are far from innocent And the worst part of it is you Can’t change me Can’t save me This world will swallow me whole Ever since that night I’m afraid to fucking feel alone The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart Sensations lost as I’m thrown right back to the start For fucking years I’ve escaped this Feeling hurt feeling trapped inside of this disconnect The steering hand of your demons Made it’s way to your heart to make you cold as shit I can’t breathe Put me out of my misery I can’t sleep Please take this pain away from me My own existence makes me sick Do you know what it feels like To feel nothing at all it leaves you dead inside I know I missed my introduction But what the fuck do you want from me It all happens in a second This trauma hurts more than it looks Please do not pray for me The repetition of sorrow has broken me Where the hell do I even begin The days just start to bleed together I’m starting to lose track of myself and feel as if I’m a enemy I’m losing sleep at night knowing I’m the one who made it through this I never knew I could live with so much weight on my chest The darkness is rising, I feel it deep inside I’m going insane living in this constant state of agony Agony The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart Sensations lost as I’m thrown right back to the start I’d be forced to feel alone If I could feel at all Tear me apart, feast on my skin my backs against the wall What am I supposed to do? Now that I’m all alone 02. Denial (Ft. Ryo Kinoshita) [Taylor Barber] I refuse to believe this is what’s left for me If this is real is this the fucking reckoning Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me We die to feel alive My eyes slowly closing but I am spinning on the inside We wanna survive by never feeling our pain Refuse to acknowledge reality and push it away Does anyone have the strength to look inside our head The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead What a fucking shame But I just gotta know How long does it burn Is there any chance I could make it out of here How long will it hurt I refuse to believe this is what’s happening Over and over again This is the time that I am searching for truth Since you jumped in front of my bullet I’ve hid away from the news And I loved you til death even tho some won’t agree So I buried you in the back so you’re closer to me [Ryo Kinoshita] I am the one you buried deep down inside There is nowhere to run and there is nowhere to hide Take a look in the mirror To see what you have become (See what you have become) It’s a downward spiral No chance of denial You'll never escape From what you have done [Taylor Barber] Struggle to feel alive If this is real is this the fucking reckoning Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me We die to feel alive My eyes slowly closing but I am spinning on the inside Spinning on the inside As what is left of me Bludgeoned by clarity My eyes are burning red I can’t believe that you’re dead I can’t believe you’re dead Dead 03. Anger I look out the window and I think to myself Why the fuck am I around when I got tossed on the shelf Always left alone to rot inside my room Always finding myself haunted by the ghost of you Locked in a prison of my mind Convincing myself slowly that this is the fucking last time I won't deny my self destructive ways Sad to say that I wish I could decay Oh I will never be the one to go I can't breathe This burning feeling of hopelessness Let me out Because it's always been me I can't control it, I'm burning every opportunity in front of me Deny deny dеny I always knew how fucking easy it was to lie, to you And as thе pain subsides Anxiety decides it's time to ride (I never asked for any of this) As I clutch this loaded gun fuck your god and his only son What'd they say? That it's easier to be me As if they understood dealing with constant agony I can't control my actions Denying my constant fate So how long do I have to live parading constant guilt It's written on my face becoming how my mind is built It never happened, I'm refusing to face the truth Sad reality is I'm made to rot Wake up! I need everyone to listen to me Don't hide your feelings behind false prosperity Open your fucking eyes I hear the voices, they drown me out when I speak They always taunt me, and make me feel so weak Locked in a prison of my mind Convincing myself slowly that this is the fucking last time I won't deny my self destructive ways Sad to say that I wish I could decay It's sad to say that I wish I could decay (Decay) 04. Bargaining (Ft. Lochie Keogh) [Taylor Barber] Get fucked Aw please give me the run around God don’t test me Sever these poisoning ties Bounding me to the lies Searching through petrified remains of regret that pull me down My mind is separating Now I’m here negating False interactions with happiness with my abrasive thoughts What the fuck is the real world? Is it your painted picture or the one you’ve painted for me? Is thеre anyone out therе that’s willing to kill me then set me free Animosity Can I hear under unspoken breath Or will regret haunt me until I find death I control reactions Silent and peaceful distractions Can anyone help my mind release my toxic reaction Is this the voice that’s been inside my head? Can I please take back the words that I’ve always said I won’t be a slave to you I won’t be a slave to me [Lochie Keogh] Is this some kind of sick joke? If you're up there I can't help but feel you're laughing at me Negligent of every dejected benefaction Suffering life in the stead of my dead friends Sick to death but it's not sick of me yet [Taylor Barber] Sever these poisoning ties Bounding me to the lies Searching through petrified remains of regret that pull me down My mind is separating Now I’m here negating False interactions with happiness with my abrasive thoughts Please give back my sanity I’m tired of thoughts harassing me So sick of everyone asking me if I’m okay I’ll make my own decisions if I die or wanna stay Destroy my mind and walk away without the feeling of pain Masking this wound from the heavy set perpetual rain If I decide to stay alive or take my honorable death Then heed my warning I’ll just swear off of my last dying breath Never again Make me feel alive again... 05. Depression Disassociate from my mind that plagues my every day Constantly changing ongoing thoughts to find my happy place I refuse to make amends I'm done with this torture and I’m begging for all the pain to end The price of death has me stuck Trying to run from this grave that I’ve dug I never once pictured god above Drowning in fear feeling stuck in this rut Repent to the god that never answered shit We’re so fucking blind why does no one seem to question it I’m so sick of everyone asking me about a situation of what is lеft of me Give it to me straight am I thе root of the problem I can’t seem to find my way out of Misanthropic mindsets are embedded inside of me I need to get a handle on my psyche I can’t feel my heart beat Feeling like I struggle to know who I’m begging for escape Just want to feel alive Disassociate from my mind that plagues my every day Constantly changing ongoing thoughts to find my happy place I refuse to make amends I'm done with this torture and I’m begging for all the pain to end The price of death has me stuck Trying to run from this grave that I’ve dug I never once pictured god above Drowning in fear feeling stuck in this rut Take whatever is left of me Let me down so the cycle repeats Since the start of the day there was no evil to spread I never wanted to let you see the words that I say I know I never will! Trying to feel okay I wasn’t done with my actions, I’m sentenced to decay 06. Death (Ft. Tom Barber) [Taylor Barber] I’m at the end of my rope I masked my depression, to make you think I’m not dead (To make you think I'm not dead) Your gods not the answer to what goes on in my head Every day is not the picture I’ve painted and now I’m sinking deeper into constant delusion They say my mind is stronger than I give it credit for Ready for anything, I don’t know what to believe anymore Look me dead in my eyes And you tell me I don’t want to die When my casket closes will I still feel fucking dead inside? No, It won’t consume me But I’ll turn a blind eye so they can never see But I’ll turn a blind eye so they can never see I still feel so numb I can not handle the feeling of being trapped inside my head (This is the death of me) Refilling so much horror on a loop inside my head I can not fade into nothing, when I was never anything from the start I used to look to you for answers, since you’ve left it’s been so dark Suffering What does it mean now feels like I’m suffocating Refuse the false serotonin my brain is allocating How do I get out The only one escaping negate intentions of everyone trying to reshape me Remember my name When I become a victim to the sickness It’s not so hard to go when your agony hits now is it? I never thought this would spark such a drastic change So when I die leave my name off the top of my grave Who the fuck are you to tell me I can’t leave when I want As days pass I’ll turn into a distant thought I never wanted this to end like this But it seems that death can’t help it’s self from grabbing my wrist Pull me deeper into life like this I’m at the end of my rope I masked my depression, to make you think I’m not dead (To make you think I’m not dead) Your gods not the answer to what goes on in my- I can not handle the feeling of being trapped inside my head (This is the death of me) Refilling so much horror on a loop inside my head Tired of feeling numb Can’t ever speak again I felt the rain for way too long Tired of feeling numb Can’t ever speak again Left by the roadside to die and rot [Tom Barber] They say a wise man makes his purpose With the pain that he’s gained Now I know that there’s a reason For this ringing here in me I will give my pain a purpose I will forfeit I will abandon I will wither with the seasons I can’t give you something to believe in There is no answer There is no answer There is no answer