Neurotic Machinery - A Loathsome Aberration [Full Album 2022]

Lyrics to A Loathsome Aberration [Full Album 2022] by Neurotic Machinery

Tracklist: 01. Aberration Drowning in the swamp of my own self-rejection Hiding in the corner from my own reflection I'm gasping for air In this abstract construction I'd swear I tried But couldn't change a fraction I break the mirrors with my fist Where's the lesson I have missed The point of no return The doom without grace There I plunge with chain and ball Never to resurface You ask me who I am but I lack any kind words The image I could draw is an obscure freak of sorts Put your face on my skin Don't you fear what's within A loathsome aberration That can pull you in Just stare through my eyes There's a mind to despise To infect your brain Drag you into The insane I need a breath of clear air Not this ash-ridden fume Ash-ridden fume Just a ray of light to break A way through this doom A way through this doom A way through this doom You ask me who I am but I lack any kind words The image I could draw is an obscure freak of sorts 02. Insanity Every waking hour of my life Every waking hour of my life I have put on a twisted face I have put on a twisted face Not by choice a mask to enslave Not by choice a mask to enslave Invisible chains a forced disguise Overshadows my true personality A false pretense so it seems That the innocents That the innocents are guilty The world is trying to enslave me Chained me to its machinery I dismissed my reality Addicted to conformity Mind dissolved to insanity I consume the world A sedative effect follows I consume the world A sedative effect follows I consume the world A sedative effect follows I consume the world A sedative effect follows I open my mouth, want to devour All Gram by gram and ton by ton Without a thought I inhale what's on Invisible chains a forced disguise Overshadows my true personality A false pretense so it seems That the innocents That the innocents are guilty I assume Defeat 03. Particles Scorched land behind me tells a story of waste Particles of ash in the air resemble myself Scorched land behind me tells a story of waste Particles of ash in the air resemble myself Like a leach the outer world suck onto me Bit by bit it steals away my energy Pressure tramples my personal tranquillity Claims a twitch here and there, amounts to infinity Time isn't a cure, it's a curse, always in short supply Time doesn't heal, there's no retry It bleeds you out It bleeds you out It bleeds you out It bleeds you out With every second I let them have A part of myself dissolves in space With every moment I'm forced to give away I let go of another particle of me One step closer to lose my identity I've trapped myself in a maze Schizophrenic between two images What I'm made and what I would become It's impossible to disambiguate Which one's the sculpture chiseled out of me My particles keep disappearing An inner fight is raging inside me Screams bursting out They watch as I make the choice As I cut off the head of one of the beasts Time isn't a cure, it's a curse, always in short supply Time doesn't heal, there's no retry It bleeds you out It bleeds you out It bleeds you out It bleeds you out Scorched land behind me tells a story of waste Particles of ash in the air resemble myself Scorched land behind me tells a story of waste Particles of ash in the air resemble myself 04. Self-Suppresed A shadow occupies my very core A shadow I feel with my own doubts I never know the moment it knocks down the door A shadow occupies my very core A shadow I feel with my own doubts I never know the moment it knocks down the door It appears from nowhere, you can't understand How in a second I am completely devoured by the dark It appears from nowhere, buries my true self I am obscured by this wraith A thief of existence The moment I stare into this blackness Is the one cordial fear Fills me up with despair I'm numb paralyzed I still linger here It appears from nowhere, you can't understand How in a second I am completely devoured by the dark It appears from nowhere, buries my true self I am obscured by this wraith A thief of existence Endurance is key when you're looking into me Through my clouded eyes that cannot see Trapped in the moment of quandary Contemplating whether to fight to be Or accept the defeat to find my peace I'm pulled below the surface of this dimension Into a stalemate where odds are too high A head-splitting tension slows time to a crawl I need to wait out this torture of mind Endurance is key when you're looking into me Through my clouded eyes that cannot see Trapped in the moment of quandary Contemplating whether to fight to be Or accept the defeat to find my peace It appears from nowhere, you can't understand How in a second I am completely devoured by the dark It appears from nowhere, buries my true self I am obscured by this wraith A thief of existence I am obscured by this wraith A thief of existence 05. Delusion My naked being is torn to pieces Eviscerated by unseen blades As I crawl through my own conscience I see shadows and silhouettes Breaking the mirrors is my own fear All the shadows are drawing near Paranoia I keep telling to myself Enfolds what haunts me My existence It is all in my head It is all in my head It is all in my head There's no escape Here it comes again From the freezing embrace It just wants me dead My limbs are severed, my spirit defeated My paranoia smiles his final grin With a final blow my life's deleted The time has come to turn me in My naked being is torn to pieces Eviscerated by unseen blades As I crawl through my own conscience I see shadows and silhouettes Paranoia I keep telling to myself Enfolds what haunts me My existence It is all in my head It is all in my head It is all in my head There's no escape Here it comes again From the freezing embrace It just wants me dead Wants me dead Still fear consumes me head to toe I can't tell who's friend or foe My eyesight flickers And dies in the haze Still fear consumes me head to toe I can't tell who's friend or foe Paranoia I keep telling to myself Enfolds what haunts me My existence It is all in my head It is all in my head It is all in my head There's no escape Here it comes again From the freezing embrace It just wants me dead My limbs are severed My spirit defeated My paranoia smiles His final grin With a final blow my life's deleted The time has come to turn me in 06. Blame Light leads my way Thin ray appeared I don't remember this place I don't know where I am I don't know who I am Lost in a blank space with no perception A faceless with no remorse The twilight void of stars Makes my open wounds feel so cold Bleeding out Wasted time comes to haunt I've lost myself My tears turn into rotting mold Heavy strides of my own past are trampling my mind Heavy lies the conscience I was lacking in my fucking life Dark came too fast Dark came too fast Lost in a blank space with no perception A faceless with no remorse The twilight void of stars Makes my open wounds feel so cold Bleeding out Wasted time comes to haunt I've lost myself My tears turn into rotting mold I am the landscape Devastated and scarred I am all that remains A maimed mass I am the landscape and my fear is the foot Heavily stamping on my mind's every root About to find the impacts of my sin I slowly realize it's a fight I can't win Dark came too fast Dark came too fast Dark came too fast Who is to blame that this came to pass? Who is to blame no questions were asked? Who is to blame that this came to pass? Who is to blame no questions were asked? 07. Insomnia My heart carries a heavy burden The toll to pay is gonna break my faith Break my faith Death has taught me enough I can see it in everybody's eyes The pungent stench of rot Expelled everytime they take a breath I set myself ablaze I set myself ablaze My hate never left me My bitterness defines me My conscience evades me My inner sight betrayed me I am not me I let the flame burn, now I can't feel I never cared for the world Hope is always false, it's never real Only submission, torture and fear Death has taught me enough I can see it in everybody's eyes The pungent stench of rot Expelled everytime they take a breath I set myself ablaze My hate never left me My bitterness defines me My conscience evades me My inner sight betrayed me I am not me My eyes never close, I stare into the darkness Where the shadow of my past materializes This monstrosity is my own ruthless creation I destroyed all the paths to a viable redemption Insomnia is the air I inhale My deliverance is void Too many questions to ask myself The truth always evades I let the flame burn, now I can't feel I never cared for the world Hope is always false, it's never real Only submission, torture and fear 08. Transcendental Into the light I came dragging my own past Dragging my life infested with blame Couldn't see through the smoke, the fog of hate Heavy on my mind, it collapsed too fast Round every corner I expected a fight My demise Never discerned right from the wrong An imprint of the soul of my own Through infinity I'm descending now Now I stand naked facing a crowd Gargantuan figures and tiny ones too All eyes fixed at me yet faces I can't see All of them deciding my final fate All eyes fixed at me All of them deciding my final fate My reflection struck my eye The creature looking at me The abomination spoiling the scenery I don't have any praise to tell When they ask me If I'm bound for hell If I'm bound for hell Insatiable was my lust for more When the chains burned my skin Immovable, froze in greed I merged into the death machine I lost all my humanity Toiling on to oblivion Yet I realize it's not me I see Hope is always false, never real My conscience flutters above me Is there a way to set me free A million faces jitter at me All the versions of me I come to a dark room with no walls Shards on the ground of my very core Face my eyes to merge with my inner I Now I stand naked facing a crowd Gargantuan figures and tiny ones too All eyes fixed at me yet faces I can't see All of them deciding my final fate All eyes fixed at me All of them deciding my final fate At speed of light, I shoot out of the maze In a vertical ascent Time isn't a cure but it doesn't exist I'm the sole existence The rage and fury feeds my inner force I refuse to lay down my arms I stand bare handed facing the final storm Of bloody blades of the judgment of them all All eyes fixed at me waiting for the sign To charge and let me see Their faces are all mine